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Sunday, February 27, 2005

Abandoned, eh?

Why have I been absent?

Well, I have been pretty busy spicing up my life. Sadly, all good things have to come to an end. Reading week is over and it is back-to-school-once-again on Monday. But, joy oh joy! The sun has awaken from its deep sleep! Winter is coming to an end; the weather is getting nice and warm!

I get sun-kissed each time I take a walk around campus. I always look forward to spring because it brings back the green and pretty flowers to life. No more white snow everywhere for the eye.

And the best thing to look forward to is home! In another 8 or 9 weeks, I will be back in KL enjoying good food, family time and sweet kisses from my honey! Mmm :)

It has been a pretty eventful week but I do not have much words for it here. I had the opportunity to have the whole house to myself when my three housemates were away. It felt good and peaceful, especially when the girl next door is not around. She is noise-intolerant, rude-intolerant, this-and-that-intolerant ... :P

Ah, heck with her. It's going to be busy busy busy from now on. I need to make preparations for my final exams, and I have some packing up to do before school ends. Can't wait to go home! Weee!

Yun @ 12:48 PM | |

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

You kissed me

I received an unexpected phone call early this morning from home. At first, I thought it was my alarm ringing. I was confused for a moment because my alarm should not be ringing at 7 a.m....(too early la). Then, I realized it was actually my phone. I picked it up and heard a familiar voice.

I was surprised. My sweetheart called to wish me Happy V-day. It came as a surprise to me because I have learnt not to expect so much from this honey of mine. Now that he is working, and adapting to his new life in KL, I should understand the hardships he is facing now. And it would be selfish of me to demand for attention all the time, especially when there is a significantly huge distance between us. I believe this is a very big problem faced by all couples in a long-distance relationship. Nevertheless, when I heard his voice and his wish, I felt like I was kissed. We talked for a while and because I had a midterm this morning, I had to go and rest before classes start. Right after we put down the phone, the memory of him kissing me came flooding back. Mmm...his sweet kissess... I will never forget :)

And I always want more :P

Happy V-Day to everyone! I believe, if you are truly in love, everyday will be a V-day to you and your partner.

Yun @ 11:19 AM | |

Friday, February 11, 2005

Break-out!

Sleep deprivation is one of the most common issues I face in varsity life.

This week has been hell already. Next week is going to be worse. All of a sudden, I have everything crashing in on me. Almost everything is due next week, one day after the other, and also midterms in between those days!! Thank goodness Reading Week is right after that. If not, I might end up as a victim of the infamous stress-related suicidal woes in university. Speaking of suicide, I have not heard any recent news from the mouths. Usually, there will be one or two cases like that every year. That is why the university gives us a holiday called Reading Week.

It is technically the second day of CNY here in Canada. Really, it is not a big deal here. I know I can celebrate and welcome the new year in my heart but I did not expect it to be so unjoyful. Well, let's just say the spirit and the mood is zilch. When I greet my friends Happy New Year or in Mandarin, xin nian kuai le, it is as though I have blurted a "damn you" into their faces. And they don't wish back. I mean. Hey. What is going on? It was disappointing until it got to a point where I found it pointless to wish my Chinese friends Happy New Year. They will just go like, "Oh, oh, oh yeah...thank you."

Sheesh.

That was how I spent the 1st day of CNY - Going to classes, meeting friends, wishing them well only to receive back a "slap" in the face, and sitting for a midterm which I could have done better if I studied well for it. Yes, an examination on the first night of CNY. How sad.

But all is not lost. I will be celebrating it with my close friends this weekend. Although I have to study for my midterms next week, I decided to leave the task till Sunday. I can spend the whole day poring into books. It is not that bad actually. If I did not have those annoying homeworks due at the same time, it would be much easier.

Last night, we watched another interesting video in my sociology class - "Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus." This video focused on an experiment with 6 different couples based on John Gray's book Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus. It was interesting to see how the men's and women's perspective are in terms of romance, marriage life, arguments, understanding, and sex. I know I have learnt a lot from it. Now I understand how my other half feels each time I get so emotional over irrational things. I finally understood how things should work in a relationship now. The reason why we are starting to have these BGR problems is because I expect more affection than what he can give. I just hope I still hold a special place in his heart after all the irritance I have caused him :P

Well, problems are everywhere. There's no perfect bliss in this life.

Back to work.

Yun @ 5:12 AM | |

Friday, February 04, 2005

Digression

It is that time of the year again where I start to think of everything back home.

Not too long ago, I was a little girl waiting with anticipation for the big CNY reunion dinner. The trips back to my hometown were quite tiring, but I get to see my uncles, aunts, and my cousins. This would be a week-long celebration with lots of "ang pows" to collect and candies to eat. Staying up late to play (or gamble) was the norm for the kids and the teenagers. Adults will chat over cups of warm, Chinese tea and snacks. The men will most likely have alcohol and the ladies chat and entertained themselves with karaoke sessions.

I feel lost in my own thoughts. It is somewhat difficult to type them out because of my unsteady, young mind. However, I do know that I have been thinking a lot about home, my family and the things I used to do when I was little. I can only reminisce those times as it will be another year without a CNY celebration with my family again. Unfortunately too, I have a midterm on the first day of CNY. The rest of the midterms follow up the week after that. Even so, my friends and I decided to get together during that weekend to have one night of fun. After all, it would be pretty depressing to welcome the new year by staring blankly at the wall in our own rooms (or burying our heads in our books). This would be a short study-break for all of us too.

I miss seeing the colours of CNY cards. I used to collect all the nice red packets that I received and keep them in my pouch. I like to look at the pretty ones. And I will make sure they don't get crumpled or folded. This is a feeling I remember so well yet it feels so far away. Perhaps, I have grown out of that little girl's realm. But, I believe I am still young at heart. Once, there was a time where I wished I was all grown up so that I will be less restricted and controlled. It was not wrong to feel that way. After all, I can see the young generation today growing up faster than they should. During my time, there was less influence. Still, as children, we all had that tinge of mischief in our playful nature. I don't regret growing up. Growing up has taught me lots of lessons in life. Sometimes, being young again is all you need to make yourself happy.

To compensate this longing feeling for home, I bought some red packets (they were expensive *ahem*) to decorate my room. I took 5 red packets and joined them side by side to make it look like a fan shape. Then, I pasted it on my door. Also, I made three small chinese lanterns, put a string through each of them and hung them on my doorknob. It does make me happier just by looking at it whenever I come home from school.

I am in a contemplative mood. There has been lots of distractions going on lately. I tend to shift my attention to something else when love is bothering me. No wonder they say a long-distance relationship is difficult to sustain. I am pretty sure we are doing okay for now. In another few weeks, it will be a year since we started this love. I miss him dearly. Things are different without him around. And things are so different now that he started working. Maybe I am just demanding too much or expecting too much from a simple-minded guy. Still, he is pretty...unromantic. Seriously. Perhaps it is just the distance. I hope it is ONLY because of that.

Time will only tell whether he will be mine at last.

Yun @ 3:15 PM | |

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

11 hours of school is a pain

I had to meet up with my lab partner early this morning for a discussion. Since my timetable today was going to be crunched, I had to wake up an hour earlier to cook my breakfast and lunch. I did not have any breaks in between classes today thus bringing my lunch to school is necessary.

Today was just tiring. I mean, since when school wasn't tiring for me? I have homework piling at my table at a constant rate every week. Laboratory sessions don't make it any easier because the lab reports are usually long and tedious. However, by the end of each day, I will plop on the bed, heave a sigh of relief and tell myself, "Yeap, it was worth it."

I attended my first materials engineering lab today. It was a three-hour lab and we had to do three different experiments. I marvelled at the equipment they had in those rooms. It was interesting. I liked the Hounsfield Impact Testing machine particularly. But if not handled with safety precautions, that thing can break your arm in a split second. Unfortunately, I do not have a picture of it here to show you. The TA did the impact testing for us though. We prepared the specimens ourselves - notched and placed them under different temperatures. Then, we passed it to the TA and he would do the rest. Also, there was a cool little machine that produced a cute mould of dry ice. It was very cute, but deadly if you touch it with your bare hands (eh, -78 degrees celcius!).

It was a whole different experience. The lab ended 15 minutes later than scheduled because of some minor time-management problems between the three TAs. Came home at 6pm, heated up my spagetthi in the microwave, and ate fast because I was starving. Took a hot shower, and went to bed at 7pm :P (it was more of a nap). Woke up at 9.30 pm to watch Amazing Race at a friend's place. This time, they were at Shanghai, China. We were laughing at a lot of things so I cannot list all of them. Next week is the season finale....a must-see!

Yun @ 2:41 PM | |

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