Thursday, April 29, 2004
Buffalo Chickens?
~Love Mum, Dad and Sis always~It is a warm and sunny day. The temperature is crawling up to a moderate 20 degrees celcius. The winds are still blowing strongly but everything else is perfect on a bright, beautiful day of Spring. The news said today will be a "transition" day of the two seasons. Soon, we will see green again as the white season retreats back. I feel like going out for a walk but I am too tired to do anything for the mean time. Last night, we made "mi hun keh" for dinner and I spent quite a lot of energy in making the flour paste. It was my first time cooking this dish and so I had the fear of screwing it up. It turned out really nice in the end, well, at least my sweetheart said it was delicious and finished the half that I left over in my second serving. Scary. I actually fainted last night. I felt so dizzy that I could not balance myself and plopped to the floor. I freaked out. Is there something wrong with me? Probably I was just too tired and drained. Fortunately, I felt so much better after a few minutes of rest. Then, I watched tv for the rest of the night - South Park, American Idol, Much Music...etc. When I saw the latest Pizza Hut avertisement on the screen, I was totally shocked at how "people" are not ashamed to use their dumbness to acquire fame. Jessica Simpson was featuring the new Buffalo Chicken Pizza. The scene, to me was pathetic. She comes down from the car and tells her friends that she brought the new "Buffalo Chicken Pizza" from Pizza Hut. One of her friends teases her by saying, "Buffalo chicken...that's buffalo without the wings, right Jessica?" And the blonde bimbo replied, "I know, I know..buffalo don't have wings..." As soon as she said that, the buffalos across the fields were flapping their wings! So, Jessica stares with horror but as stupid as she can get, she ended up asking the buffalo to show its wings again by acting like a chicken in front of the animal...
Sheesh. How weird is that? By the way, if you don't get the thing about Jessica Simpson and the buffalo wings, don't feel lost. This whole thing about buffalo wings and Jessica Simpson was hilarious as it showed how dumb the blondie is. She became the laughing stock of the world when she said, "I don't eat buffalos" after being offered some buffalo wings (which are actually chicken wings given the name "buffalo wings").
Tuesday, April 27, 2004
Extension?
~Love Mum, Dad and Sis always~I met with Dr. Sundararaj today. He was very helpful and friendly. In fact, he looked really young to be a professor. Now, I know why people have been telling me chemical engineering professors look relatively young although they are already in their 40s-50s. He assisted me in scheduling my courses for each term, explaining important information on some courses which are pre-requisites for higher grade courses and co-requisites for some others. I guess, I would really have to extend another year. This means, I will have to renew my study permit before 2007. Haha. Another $200 down the drain or else I will be an illegal immigrant. All these little demonstrations of power and mockery irritates the skin out of me. You pay so much for just a piece of paper that allows you to come into the country and yet, some applications get rejected. Life is so unfair. Since there is this rejection policy the application fee should be reasonable. $200! Call me a stingy, always-complaning girl but I hate to not think about its rationale. Even though it is hard, it does not have to be expensive. Such a rip-off. Immigration...well of course, with these people around, the country is safe and protected from intruders. Still, it stirs me off sometimes when dealing with these stuff. Probably the reason I am making such a big deal out of it is because of the bad experience we malaysians always have with our immigration people. Poor service, bad organization, lame and lazy workers...and it is such an irony that over here you get good service, smiles and polite greets but too $$$!...I guess you can never get all you want in this world. Just like growing up. When you are 13, you wish you could have freedom like your friends. When you are 16, you wish you can have more freedom like your friends. They seem to be having more opportunites to learn and experience. Then, when you are 19, you have gotten almost all the freedom and then your parents say, "Even if you are 25 we won't let you free!" What in the world is that suppoze to mean.
Sunday, April 25, 2004
Pack, pack away!
~Love Mum, Dad and Sis always~Done.
I'm freeeeee! Well, not quite yet. My final paper was difficult but I could not care less. I wrote stuff down and that is all that matters. I did not leave any questions blank. I tried my best to answer everything else. I expected this exam to be dreadfully draggy but instead that two and a half hours passed really quickly. My heart jumped with glee when the clock strike 11.30 am.
"Time is up!" Yippeeeeee!
After that, most of the first-year engineers headed to QUAD for free hot dogs and pop. The first year club decided to give the engineers a year-end treat by giving free food and pop. It was quite unorganized but it was expected as we did not have time to plan it. We estimated a quarter of the co-hord to turn up, but there was a long, long line-up when I arrived at the area. So, naturally, everyone had a great time celebrating the end of school and the beginning of holidays! It felt so good to be exam-free! There was a big group of guys playing football, some girls playing frisbee and the like. Even engineering professors who taught us this term were there to share the fun.
I am starting to miss everything - the people I know, campus, residence...
This coming September, we will be in different engineering classes, I know I won't see Sarah, Vishi, Hiren, Miki, Jason, Yi Shuai, Bryan, Michael, Eugene...so many of them...sigh *sob sob*I will miss those "doing-homework-together" sessions that were always filled with laughter and crappy talks. I will miss my classes, especially physics and calculus lessons. Never once had I felt bored or drifted off into lala land during these two classes. The company, the professor, the weird guy who always sat in front and asked stupid, irrelevant questions...I will miss them all.
I have been packing ever since I got back from campus. In a few hours time, I'll be moving some of the stuff down to Joyce's place first. Most of the people on my floor left this morning. Damn...I did not know the good work of cleaning could do damages. I had to clean out the marks and spillage on the door so I scrubbed it with the detergent provided by the housekeeping staff and guess what...I made the mark worse as I had scrubbed out some paint...(damn it!) Now I have to pay the charges, $20.00!! I am going to get Brenda to buy me lunch when I'm back in KL. After all, it was her idea too that we stick those shiny stuff on the door. Sheesh!
Got to finish up the packing!
Saturday, April 24, 2004
One more to go!
~Love Mum, Dad and Sis always~The window was shaking violently. I looked outside to find huge gust of winds terrorizing every single thing that stood in its way. Tonight there will be a big storm in the city. Come to think of it, I have not heard the sound of rainstorms ever since I came to this place. No thunder. No lightning. Not even the sound of heavy rain pattering against the window. I miss those sounds. I remember those rainy afternoons back home where I would curl up in bed for a nice afternoon nap. It felt cold yet the air-conditioning was left on the whole time. I would snuggle under the soft quilt and doze off. Those were the days...when I had no trouble in getting a good rest. I don't get ANY of that here. Ever since I came here, I have had trouble sleeping. I hope it is not insomnia. I sleep so late every night that it has become a routine. I would be wasting my time trying to sleep at 1 am. So, I would toss and turn till 5 am without getting sufficient sleep. I am making sure I get a good night's sleep after all my finals are done!
One more to go!! I sat for math today. I do not know how to describe the whole two hours of exam. I spent one whole day and the whole of last night stuffing the textbook into my puny brain and the questions were not as I expected them to be. They were straight forward - "apply-formula-find-answer" kind of questions. Sigh. I don't know. I guess I managed it pretty well. Not that I am going to ace this final paper. About five minutes before the end of exam, i was already eager to pack up and leave. Looking around me, I saw some people leaving and a familiar face was smiling so gleefully at me. My friend, Vishi, had a very happy expression. He aced it already...
Now, I have the night to squeeze physics! I don't think I will succeed doing so. My heart is somewhere else and hey, how am I suppoze to concentrate on studying when it is the night before your LAST FINAL?? Hah!
Mostly everyone on my floor has left. I saw Sara this afternoon on the way to school. It was a sweet moment. She was leaving and we said our goodbyes and shared hugs. Nice gal...I'll miss her.
Ooo I just saw a bird got blown away by the wind again. Funny! That's how strong the winds get around here. Enough to lift you up a little as you walk. I heard that there are tornados in the summer. Summer is really a beautiful season, it's warm and sunny, everyone is just out there to soak up in the sun.
Well, back to work! Actually, I'm so tired that I just don't feel like doing anything.
Friday, April 23, 2004
Overloaded
~Love Mum, Dad and Sis always~Flutterfly...it's pretty. And brighter too ^^.
WHAT was I thinking when asking my doll, Maomao, if he will miss this room? Insane. I cannot believe I actually talked to my doll. I had a conversation with a non-living thing, which, I know in my right mind, would not answer me back because it can't talk. All it did was smile cutely at me. Okay. Enough of this crap. *shivers*
Miss Ling is hitting the stress level again. I am overloaded with too much information and fatigue. Yesterday, I spent the whole afternoon studying "the confusion of linear algebra" and did some packing up. I started packing the smaller items into the boxes. My room is in the ultimate state of "mess". My shoes are everywhere, plastic bags here and there (mostly leftovers by my "considerate" ex-roommate), books and files lying randomly on the bed and table. Wow. For one thing, I was never this messy. At most, I just have books everywhere in a disorderly manner. Now, everything is everywhere. Still, I feel a tinge of sadness as I begin to picture this room being "emptied" by Saturday. Having thoughts of it brings back so many memories - the day I moved in to this residence, the night where I unpacked my stuff and placed everything neatly in the room despite having felt the loneliness and isolation, those nights of frustration from the lousy, inconsiderate noisy animals...
I guess, in a lot of ways, I will miss this room. Not the residence, but the room. Maybe a little of the floor members and the like. Hey, I survived through all the trials and tribulations living here in this alien place all by myself. No doubt I had my ups and downs but I realized facing all these allowed me to grow to become a stronger, better person. I will be moving into a new place and there is new excitement to experience and new friends to make. A new day has arrived, a new life to experience.
Well! I'll be done with one exam tomorrow afternoon! I can't wait, hehe. Exams get me frustrated, especially when they seem to drag on forever. I woke up this morning to see lots of vans and trucks outside the residence. Some students are already moving out. I still have to figure out who can help me move my stuff. Sigh...It's so hard not having a vehicle to own.
Time to see my physics professor now.
Thursday, April 22, 2004
Funny parodies
~Love Mum, Dad and Sis always~Pretty cool. Never thought I would look at words this way!
Ever stop to think and forget to start again?
Is being an idiot like being high all the time?
How much deeper would the ocean be without sponges?
Hard work has a future payoff. Laziness pays off NOW.
Radioactive cats have 18 half-lives.
We are only young once, but we can stay immature forever.
Support bacteria! It's the only culture some people have.
He who laughs last thinks slowest.
Practice safe eating - always use condiments.
Laugh alone and the world thinks you're an idiot.
Learn from your parents' mistakes - use birth control.
Madness takes its toll. Please have exact change.
I don't suffer from insanity, I enjoy every minute of it.
If marriage were outlawed, only outlaws would have in-laws.
I used to have an open mind but my brains kept falling out.
Hermits have no peer pressure.
Change is inevitable, except from a vending machine.
My inferiority complex is not as good as yours.
Stupidity got us into this mess - why can't it get us out?
What good is science if nobody gets hurt?
Make it idiot-proof and someone will make a better idiot.
Why do psychics have to ask you for your name?
If everything is coming your way, You're in the wrong lane.
I almost had a psychic girlfriend but she left me before we met.
Why did kamikaze pilots wear helmets?
Indecision is the key to flexibility.
Wednesday, April 21, 2004
Wrong post
~Love Mum, Dad and Sis always~Whoops! Sorry about deleting the last post. I meant to edit something and I accidentally deleted it somehow...my computer went "gaga" again.
I shall just re-write everything in a different manner. So, I sat for my tedious chemistry paper this morning. What more can I say? I'll just let out a big SIGH. After all, I was never that close to scoring an A for chemistry ever since I stepped into university. It was a mind-boggling three-hour exam. I sat there, fiddling my pencil, flipping through the pages one by one when I could not complete answering them. I was in a mess. I calmed down, tried not to panic when I saw one guy's paper full of answers (yikes!) and started back at square one.
My ever-observant professor, Yoram Apelblat, discovered that I had returned to the first page of the exam as he walked down the row. He took my paper, flipped it and gave me some kind of smile while he muttered something that I could barely hear at that moment. Anyhow, I managed to figure out what that whole 30 seconds of moment in time was. Somehow, he "praised" me for being smart to move on when I faced difficulty in answering one question. In an hour's time, I was back at the first page trying to work my way through all the 12 questions again. What an eventful day it was.
Unfortunately, just as I was about to breathe a sigh of relief after I handed in the paper, my utterly paranoid friend (Eugene), grabbed me from my bag and shook me so hard while screaming at the top of his voice, "I FAILED IT ALL!!! ESTHER!!!!" He should have possibly noticed that his gesture had nearly involved me in a fatal accident. How kind do people get these days? Venting their anger, unleashing all their frustration on you without considering the safety of others. Very nice indeed...
As for my part, I shall just equate it to the cookie monster song, "C is for cookie...and that is good enough for me..."
Good news. I PASSED ENCMP 100. I passed with a C-. Great. Words can't express how happy I am. Now, all I need is a nice GPA to get into my program.
Woohoo...can't wait to be back to see my new home. It's all newly renovated. I wonder how it looks like. I have my own room now (finally after so long). It sounds pretty from the way my mum describes it. But I still would have preferred it to be painted blue or white.
Alright. Now, it's hardcore action for my last two exams. Full blast study ahead. No buts, no daydreaming, no crying, no thinking...hmm is that possible?
Tuesday, April 20, 2004
A thinking woman
~Love Mum, Dad and Sis always~A couple decided to spend the holiday at a fishing resort. The husband likes to fish while the wife enjoys reading.
One day, feeling tired, the husband decided to return back to the room early to rest. So, the wife took the boat out by herself even though she was not familiar with the path. After finding a nice spot to rest, she anchored the boat and took out her book to read. A few minutes later, a game warden approached the wife to question her presence in a restricted fishing area.
"Ma'am, what are you doing?"
"I'm reading a book, can't you see?" the wife replies.
"Ma'am, you are in a restricted fishing area. You are not allowed to fish here. I'm sorry but I have to write you up," the game warden informs the wife as he took out his pen.
"Excuse me, sir. I am just reading a book. I am not fishing and have no intentions to do so."
"Ma'am, you have all the equipment. You might just start fishing at any time."
"In that case, I'll have to charge you with sexual assault."
"But Ma'am, I haven't even touched you."
"Well, you have all the equipment. You might just start at any time."
"Have a nice day, ma'am..."
MORAL OF THE STORY: Never argue with a woman who reads.
Two good jokes
~Love Mum, Dad and Sis always~Here's a really good joke I got from the internet...
Remember the book "Men are from Mars, women are from Venus?"
Here's a prime example from an English professor from University of Phoenix as a class exercise.
"Today we will experiment with a new form called the tandem story"
"The process is simple. Each person will pair off with the person sitting to his or her immediate right. As for tonight's homework, one of you will write the first paragraph of a short story, email it to your partner and send a copy to me. Your partner will read the first, add another paragraph and send it back, also sending a copy to me. Then, you proceed to add the third, so on back and forth.
Remember to re-read everything to keep the story coherent. There will be absolutely NO talking outside the emails. If you have anything to say, say it in the email. The story is over when both agree that a conclusion has reached."
The following was actually turned in by two of my English students:
Rebecca (last name deleted) and Gary (last name deleted).
THE STORY (first by Rebecca):
At first Laurie couldn't decide which kind of tea she wanted. The chamomile which used to be her favourite for lazy evenings at home now reminded her too much of Carl, who once said, in happier times, that he liked chamomile. But she felt she must now, at all costs, keep her mind off Carl. His possessiveness was suffocating, and if she thought too much about him, her asthma started aching up again. So chamomile was out of the question.
(Gary):
Meanwhile, Advance Sergeant Carl Harris, leader of the attack squadron now in orbit over Skylon 4, had more important things to think about than the neuroses of an air-headed bimbo named Laurie whom he had spent one sweaty night over a year ago. "A.S.Harris to Geostation 17". He said into his trans galactic communicator, "Polar orbit established. No sign of resistance..." But before he could sign off, a bluish particle beam flashed out of nowhere and blasted a hole through his ship's cargo bay. The jolt from the direct hit sent him flying out of his seat and across the cockpit.
(Rebecca):
He bumped his head and died almost immediately, but not before he felt one last pang of regret for physically brutalizing the one woman who ever had feelings for him. Soon afterwards, Earth stopped its pointless hostilities towards the peaceful farmers of Skylon 4. "Congress Passes Law Permanently Abolishing War and Space Travel," Laurie read in the newspapers one morning. The news simultaneously excited and bored her. She stared out the window dreaming of her youth, when the days had passed unhurriedly and carefree, with no papers to read, no television to distract her from her sense of innocent wonder at all beautiful things around her. "Why must one lose one's innocence to become a woman?" she pondered wistfully.
(Gary):
Little did she know, but she had less than 10 seconds to live. Thousands of miles above the city, the Anu'udrian mothership launched its first of its lithium fusion missiles. The dim-witted wimply peaceniks who pushed the Unilateral Aerospace disarmament Treaty through the congress had left Earth a defenseless target for the hostile alien empires who were determined to destroy the human race. Within 2 hours after the passage of the treaty the ships were on a course for Earth, carrying enough firepower to pulverize the entire planet. The President in his top-secret mobile submarine headquarters on the ocean floor off the coast of Guam, felt the inconceivably massive explosion which vaporized poor, stupid, Laurie and 85 million other Americans. The President slammed his fist on the conference table, "We can't allow this! I'm going to veto that treaty! Let's blow'em out of the sky!!"
(Rebecca):
This is absurd. I refuse to continue this mockery of literature. My partner is a violent, chauvinistic, semi-literate adolescent.
(Gary):
Yeah? Well, you're a self-centered tedious neurotic whose attempts at writing are literary equivalent to Valium. "Oh shall I have chamomile tea? Or shall I have some other sort of F***ING TEA????" Oh no, I'm just an air-headed bimbo who reads too many Danielle Steel novels.
(Rebecca):
Asshole.
(Gary):
Bitch.
(Rebecca):
Get fucked.
(Gary):
Eat shit.
(Rebecca):
FUCK YOU - YOU NEANDERTHAL!!!!!
(Gary):
GO DRINK SOME TEA WHORE!
(Teacher): A+ - I really liked this one. Only group to get an A.
Monday, April 19, 2004
Meaningful
~Love Mum, Dad and Sis always~Meaningful story from the internet~~
When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar......and the coffee."
A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.
So the professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the
jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.
The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous " Yes."
The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.
" Now," said the professor, as the laughter subsided, " I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things like your family, your children, your health, your friends, your favourite passions, things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full. The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house, and your car. The sand is everything else, like the small stuff."
" If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, " there is no room
for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the th! ings tha t are important to you. Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. Take care of the golf balls first, the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."
One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The professor smiled. " I'm glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend".
Gloomy Gum Gooey...
~Love Mum, Dad and Sis always~While walking back to my place, all the thoughts came crashing down into me like the rush of a waterfall. I started to reminisce the time when we first met and how we became friends. I remember that one night when he asked me if I wanted to go have a late-night supper at 1.00 am and I happily agreed, because I was in love. I never knew how he felt about me, and I guess I did not want to find out less disappointment. Little did I knew that it was actually a "date". How silly can he get. I remember those times we spent together, those silly online chats through the webcam, and that was before we got together.
One night, after karaoke with him and the SEASA bunch, I thought I would not be able to see him again after that night, as the end of holidays meant serious work on studies and less time for play. I walked back to my room, I slumped onto my bed, thinking of how things just ended so quickly for us - that I will miss the opportunity to share something special with him. But in just minutes, he changed my life forever. I was grabbing some bread to eat ( I still remember how I was spreading the peanut butter on the bread) when he called me to go downstairs. At 3.00 am...he was suppoze to be home as they dropped him off at his place before dropping me off at mine! Surprised, I walked aimlessly down and there he was, sitting there by the tables at the cafeteria. And, yeah...he confessed. That was the best thing that ever happened to me.
Those times were sweet. The few first weeks together were such bliss. Now, there's so much tension between us. The distance that we will face, my exams, he being ill, me occupying too much space, me being irritating, he being frustrated...
Nevertheless, now I know how it feels to love someone. If I really do lose him one day, I guess the pain will be so unbearable that it will affect every single part of me. Still, my love for him will be eternal...I'll never forget, imprinted in my soul, it'll just fade away in reality, but never fade in my memories...thank you for showing me such meaning in life, it's just too bad that I have to feel the immense hurt but it is no one's fault...
We'll I just have to try, I guess. I know we will face a lot of problems ahead, but I hope we can take it step by step. I know I'm young, and stubborn and unstable, but I really want to make things work for the both of us. I will be having tough years studying ahead while you will be either working to start a career or studying. May these journey of ours be a platform to strengthen ourselves first and hopefully, our hearts as well, if our hearts still stay as one.
~~I'm missing you now, every minute in fact, whenever you are not here with me. But, I have to concentrate on studying now.~~
Sunday, April 18, 2004
The long-D shatters my heart
~Love Mum, Dad and Sis always~I was on the phone with Chris a half an hour ago. We talked for abit about studies and exams. Then, I proceeded to inform him of my ugly situation - the upcoming "long D" ahead. His words made me think about my sweetheart more and the possibilities of us staying strong through the years.
Long-distance relationship...
I cannot help but think about it every night and day. Whatever I do, wherever I go, it is always on my mind. I know I cannot lose him. I know this time around...my life will be so empty and different without his love. I can feel the isolation in me, curled up in the dark corner, with nothing else but the sound of my cries. I can hear my heart breaking to pieces, like the sound of the shattering glass that hits the floor. My mind is going out of control. No...what will happen to us?
Chris suggested to break it up now. He just blurted it out without knowing exactly how I see things. I cannot bring myself to do it at this time. I guess all I can do is to expect the problems that we will face. Breaking up...that was one word that made me felt dumbfounded. Holding the phone to my ears, not a sound could be made. I could not say a word after listening to Chris's words.
No one ever said it was easy. No one told me it could be this hard until true love came along and led me to you. Only love showed me how this begins. The ending has not been decided. I live to tell the story, be it happy or sad. Love can make me smile, yet it can break my heart in two. And in my heart, I know that only you can change my life forever...
25 WAYS TO TELL THAT THE SEMESTER IS DRAGGIN' ON TOO LONG
~Love Mum, Dad and Sis always~25 WAYS TO TELL THAT THE SEMESTER IS DRAGGIN' ON TOO LONG
1. Shaving becomes more and more optional by the day.
2. You get more sleep in class than you do in your bed.
3. You can no longer distinguish your bank balance from your GPA.
4. You actually think, "If I were diagnosed with Pneumonia, I could get a doctor's note excusing me from finals!"
5. You can't say the word "Lab" without qualifying it with some kind of profanity.
6. You spend more time calculating the lowest possible mark you can afford to get on your final exam than you spend studying for it.
7. You only wash dirty dishes when they outweigh you.
8. The tomatoes in your fridge have become sentiment.
9. The first thought you have when you wake up is "20 more hours and I can go back to sleep!"
10. MasterCard is now master over you!
11. You forget to pay rent, hydro and phone bills. But you'll do anything to ensure cable (and internet) isn't disconnected.
12. Your concept of cleaning the toilet is "Aim for the stain"!
13. Those "Train At Home For A Better Career" commercials seem like a viable alternative to your course of study.
14. Being a stand up Comedian seems like a viable alternative to your course of study.
15. Being a Professional wrestler seems like a viable alternative to your course of study.
16. Your IQ exceeds your body weight. But you're just as stupid as you've always been.
17. "Tearing your hair out" used to be a figure of speech.
18. Just about anything constitutes a healthy meal provided that you drink it with milk.
19. You are briefly convinced that your inability to get dates is actually a blessing because you don't have time for it.
20. 3 meals in one day is special occasion.
21. You memorize acronyms you learned in class and use them regularly. But have no idea what they mean.
22. You can't remember a concept you learned last semester, but you can quote word-for-word an episode of the Simpsons you saw two years ago.
23. "Catching the news" means watching Sportsdesk while eating breakfast.
24. The only thing that keeps you from causing your roommate serious physical harm is the fact that the Hydro is in his name.
25.You begin to remember high school as the best years of your life - in other words, you've become delusional
26. Lists like this actually describe your life.
Thursday, April 15, 2004
Sony Ericsson!
~Love Mum, Dad and Sis always~
I was with my sweetheart at the mall today and we saw this really cool phone! Check it out! I was so tempted to buy it as it is cheap - $150 with only a three-month contract. However, I won't be here for the summer to end the contract so I don't think I can purchase it now. Oh well. Too bad for me. I hope it will still be in stock when my contract with Rogers is over. By that time, it will be the month of November...which is 6 months from now...I don't think they'll have anymore in stock...boohoo =(
Two down and three more to go! I'm starting to think I go wacky during exam periods. I realize I do weird things and say nonsensical stuff. I guess yesterday's exam really knocked me off. Math was pretty okay although it took me a while to remember how to do the integrals. I panicked a little when I realize I couldn't do the first two questions, but later on, I managed to calm down and worked it out. Hopefully it was right.
Engineering computer was...brutal....
If I did not sit down with Bryan and Sarah to discuss some of the sample final questions, I would have just guessed every question on the test. At least, I took the extra effort to look through it properly and try and figure things out. So, if I didn't do as bad as my last two tests, I should be able to pass...I hope...
As I closed the examination booklet yesterday, I noticed the look on everyone's faces. Disappointment. Blank. Undeniably, the engineering computer final was difficult. I walked to the back to hand in my answer sheet and I saw some students were still sitting down, trying to decide which answer will be the best guess. Some were just shading on the answer sheet randomly. Even so, it was still hard to relief the stress in my mind. Nevertheless, I'm glad that I'm done with two exams. The next three will be Chemistry (freaky), Linear Algebra (I hate this one, it doesn't make sense at all) and Engineering Physics. Then, I'm done! Yipeeee!
I have started packing already. Realizing that I have three exams next week and only 30 hours after my final exam to move out of the residence, I brought down my large suitcase and the other small ones. I will have boxes of other stuff too like my books and all. Or maybe I should get another suitcase to keep my textbooks and files. It will ease the moving-out procedure. I'm excited at the thought of moving into a new place. Yet, my heart just crushes everytime I think about my sweetheart. Sigh. Why do things always have to end up this way...why...
Tuesday, April 13, 2004
Birthday party...and one more day to FINALS
~Love Mum, Dad and Sis always~It was Nan's birthday yesterday. The whole crazy bunch of us celebrated his birthday at Earls last night. After a whole afternoon of studying, I went over to my sweetheart's place to use the piano at the community centre. Desperately, I went there, sat down, and banged as much as I wanted to (although I was distracted by the couple playing ping pong near me and this guy who was watching his hockey game really loudly). Nevertheless, I stayed on and played a few songs. Sadly, my fingers have grown rusty. I can't play as well as I used to. Sigh. I must brush up my skills when I'm back home. At least, at home, I can play the piano without any form of distraction and without a time limit. I seem to get nervous when I'm playing with people around me. Probably, I lack the self-confidence, always constantly worrying about how people will judge my piano skills. Well, I just have to accept it that I'm not very good at it =p
After an hour of satisfaction in releasing stress, Nan and Anthony picked the bunch of us up and we all went to Earls together. The food was really good. I had spicy seafood penne...mmmm...yummy...but extremely $$...
There were about 20 of us or more at the dinner. It was pretty fun talking crap and sharing dirty jokes with one another. Well, what can I say about the bunch that I sat with? Personally, I felt that if I were sitting at the other end, it would be pretty boring haha...lucky my sweetie and I were with Ashmir and Daryl. Those were good times...good times =)...
Nan invited four other friends to the dinner as well. From the sound and their appearance I could tell they were canadian-born-chinese (CBC) and they were not too happy with what the crazy bunch of us were discussing or laughing about. Maybe our chat was not up to their standard. Bargh...who cares...CBC people...
Sigh. It has been almost two months since we first started dating each other. I can't believe it is all coming to an end so soon...don't get me wrong when I say it's ending. I just hope a long-distance relationship will be strong for us. It's so hard to say. Everyday, every night, I think of the possiblities that I might lose him...it just shatters my heart straight away even by just thinking about it...for the first time in my life, I can't imagine life without someone. This is the first time that I know I would really feel the isolation, the loss, the pain, a deep, permanent cut in my heart, if I am no longer his love. I rest my case.
Finals starts tomorrow! I have math first thing in the morning, and C++ in the afternoon. Brutal...I know I won't get a good mark for C++ but I just want to get at most a C. SERIOUSLY. I'm hoping to score for math too but I don't want to put any high hopes on it. THe midterm paper was easy, and we are all expecting the final paper to be difficult to sail through. Wish me luck!! ^^
Wednesday, April 07, 2004
Zzz
~Love Mum, Dad and Sis always~I feel so sleepy...
The worse part is waking up at 7 in the morning to attend my last chemistry class, which only lasted for half and hour. I went to the library to "study" some math but I ended up falling asleep for about an hour. I think it's too quiet in the library. It makes me feel bored and sleepy easily (I know I'm weird). Now, I'm in the MAC library enjoying the cool MAC computer ^^
But, I still can't figure out how to open multiple windows with this computer. Also, I can't seem to find the control to delete a file. Weird. As much as I like this MAC computer, I get frustrated because it's not as user-friendly as windows. Probably I'm too used to windows. It's going to be a long, boring day and I know I'm not in the mood to do any revision. I'll try again later, hopefully I don't fall asleep again. Maybe I should get some sleep first, then I can study all night later. That seems more practical for a night owl like me. I seem to stay awake better at night then in the day time. Currently the weather is driving me to bed too as it is cold and drizzling outside, a perfect weather to sleep in @.@
Unintelligent words from someone has brought much annoyance to me. It is such moments where you sit down in front of the screen and stare at those words, wishing you could give them a slap in the face to wake the hell out of them. Undeniably, I would feel like giving that person a REAL slap if I do have the chance. Such ego and chauvinistic character explains every one of his flaws. It reflects a childish nature upon someone who thinks in that way only to inflict hostility upon himself. What more can I say? I didn't know that he was so sour about the whole thing just because I made the first move, I asked for it first. It is as though he thinks that he was right all this while. How can anyone tolerate such lack of disrespect? Hidden from my sight, I should have known earlier. I learned my mistake and yes, it takes one person to go through mistakes to change for the better. But he does not even learn from his mistakes. The chauvinist pig paraded his words to me as though I was the immature child who needed "guidance" as I took everything for granted and played other people's hearts. That stubborn-ass does not even see his own mistakes first before pointing out other people's mistakes. I feel so angry when I am reminded of this. I don't want to make considerations, but today I feel that these people are so ignorant of everything. In short, they are dumb. Spoiled. Pampered. Inconsiderate. Disrespectful. Chauvinistic. Immature. LOSER. Tactless...there's more and I shall add on to it.
Enough of anger. I'm getting too stressed out by the day. I wish I can be stress-free for life. Is there some kind of pill that I can take to diminish the stress that live on me like parasites?
Sunday, April 04, 2004
Squeak, squeak!
~Love Mum, Dad and Sis always~First off, I would like to apologize for my silly behaviour in my last post.
I was at the time of the month where the hormones "party" like crazy and that probably explains why I posted a non-understandable entry. Indeed, I am very much aware of the fact that April Fool's Day was so uneventful and not to mention I did not even get tricked by anybody or even attempt to trick someone. Boy, I think school is getting to everyone here that an official day of pranks or jokes does not play a significant part in our lives anymore.
The weather is getting so well these days. Finally, after 6 months of long, bitter winter, I felt the warmth of the sun on my cheeks again. The breeze was just right, the sun was proudly shining its glory down to earth for it is his time to take charge of the season. Undeniably, the weather still gets a little cranky. The temperature continues to fluctuate wildly up and down and I'm hoping I don't wake up one morning again to see snow falling down from the sky. No, no, no...
Some of my friends have suggested the idea of picnicking at the park but I guess I don't have the time to "picnic" hehe. I have to start working hard for my finals. It is approaching fast but the weird feeling is that I don't feel its tense situation. I'm probably one of those people who can concentrate better when studying alone. With the company of friends, it's hard for me to stay focused somehow. I'm so used to studying all by myself since young and that's probably the case why I can't commit myself to study groups. Nevertheless, I have to admit a good study group can do so much for someone. I'm perfectly fine with the fact that I'm doing assignments with my other coursemates, but studying for exams is another thing and I usually don't mix the two up. I have to go at my own pace when reviewing for an exam and usually what hinders me is the company of friends, be they noisy asses or quiet ants.
Everything happens for a reason, they say. I have yet to grasp those words in the grip of my hand. I'm guessing nothing happens for no reason of course. It is the heart of everything that keeps things going but we often overlook the slightest form of love, the subtle gesture of care, or the indecent atrocities and false pretenses. She knows she has lost everything but she never realized our help was for a good cause. Throwing her temper and ignoring the elders who apparently "cheated" her feelings only shows how much she can take on in the future. Such behaviour is intolerable. Spoiled to the bottom of the heart, she is as stubborn as a goat. Now, no one bothers about her. Everyone gave up on her as soon as she stepped over the borderline, assuming that she can escape from her already broken life, that everything must be done according to her way, that no one, not even her sickly mother can advise her, dig deep into her secrets, her heart. It is such disappointment that reaches my ears for I had an urge to stand by her side always as she was the deprived child who needed the love and care. Now, my sight is blocked by a barrier so arrogant and tall that it is not worth trying to break it down, to cure her illness at heart. Everything happens for a reason, I guess. And that reason is no more than love in this case...
Farewell, old friend. May you find peace in the solitude life that you now seek. This is only the beginning and there are many more obstacles in your path. May you realize it soon enough to not cry a river when time cannot be turned back and things cannot be undone. For this is life, sometimes crying over spilt milk does no cure at all but it opens a new road in life. May God bless you always, my old friend...
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Home: KL, Malaysia
School: U of A
I am someone who frets a lot - I call it a psychological disorder. I am constantly trying to escape my complex mind which, very often, drives me and my close companions to the edge of insanity. Born under the sun star Libra, I am greatly affected by a disease called "indecisiveness". Nicknames were never part of my dictionary until I met some people who decided to name me "turtle". Soon, I was representing a zoo of hamsters, "sotongs", pigs, cats, etc...
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