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Tuesday, August 31, 2004

Bad news

I have got bad news.

Well it is not new news. It has been eating up my strength since young. Only now, it has started to show severe symptoms. If not taken care of, I will be very ill.

Definitely no more ice creams, cakes, sugary buns, candy and whatever that has sugar in it. I am, very prone now, to diabetes.

The doctor gave a real warning this time. Each time I make a visit to the doctor, urine tests and blood tests proved my illness. Sugar in my blood. Sugar in my urine. Just got nagged by my mum the other day for not taking care of my body. Again, if not taken care of well, I will have kidney problems. I don't want to thinkn about it. So, I have to drink lots of water. Water, here I come.

Sigh.

I have only a day more before I leave on the jetplane. Time passes so fast when we realize we have not been looking at the clock. It passes so slowly when we stare at the clock too much.

Another 8 months in Canada.

I do look forward to school. I missed my friends there and that freedom.

But like any other human being, I have my worries. Probably I tend to worry more than anyone else. My mind is like a constant worrying machine, which never fails to stop.

I guess, the only thing that I worry of is my relationship with him. It will be a long-distance for sure. I hope our love and our hearts are strong enough to keep us going. I feel so insecure whenever he is not around with me. My friends doubt this relationship. I feel hurt when I think about it. Some could just say I am stricken by puppy love. But no one can understand the person in love, especially when she has gone through everything with the guy she chose. It comes to a point where you know you want to live with that person and share the rest of your life with him. Everything falls into its place. Everything becomes comfortable and right.

Ah.

Anyways.

No point crying about it like how I did when this relationship turned its path. I have to keep it going myself. I hope he does too.

Did you guys actually look at 1utama today??? I am not talking about the crowd inside...the cars alone scurrying into that crazy place is enough to make you turn back to your home (or otherwise, go somewhere else). Sheesh. Madness rules in 1utama.

Ahh...I found this 3D picture somewhere on the internet. See if you can spot it. If you look carefully, you can only see one big buddha statue. Try it! :)

Yun @ 11:25 PM | |

Sunday, August 29, 2004

Back from Holidayz

At some park down town KL...I forgot the name! ARGH!

I was on a four-day-holiday at my sweetheart's place in Ipoh and a three-day holiday in Penang with my family. I am back, for now at least ... until Thursday when I would leave for Canada for another 8 months before I touch Malaysian soil again.

Well!

I did not expect to receive a holiday to my sweetheart's place from my parents. Since he had been travelling up and down every two weeks to see me, I thought I should pay him and his mother a visit this time around. I was surprised when mum agreed to it. I remembered every single outing that I asked before had a result of a plain-smacking "NO" from my parents.

Actually, my mum was the one who suggested me to go up to Ipoh. Oooh...how sweet life can be at times! :)

We took a bus up to Ipoh together. Although Ipoh is not a very exciting place to visit (except for the mouth-watering food), I was so excited that I could not sleep the night before the trip, hehe. Indeed, it was quite a boring town. There was not much to see except the well-known caves and temples. Nevertheless, I was still in love with the whole trip (mostly because I am in love with him akakakkaak).

So, he brought me around Ipoh. We went to visit some caves and the like. I spent most of the time with him and his mum. His mother is a very nice and hospitable person. There was once where I felt she did not quite like me but I was just being silly, really. I told him about it and he got mad...I was just worrying too much as usual :P He said if his mum does not like a person, she would be quiet the whole time and not talk to the person at all. Looks like I misjudged her! >_<

The first cave that I visited was Gua Kek Lok Tong. It was a pretty sight! It was not a very elaborate cave. More like a tunnel through the cave where there were several buddhist statues for prayers. Beyond the tunnel was a very beautiful garden. There was a very large lake of lotus flowers in the middle of the garden. Somehow, I could not spot one lotus flower among the lotus forest. Hehe. We took a short walk in the garden and headed back home.

I also had the opportunity to taste his mother's fine cooking. Boy, were they good! Although it was mostly vegetarian food, they were just as delicious mmmmm...I tasted all the good food in Ipoh as well. Thanks to my sweetheart who brought me to eat these delicacies! Yum yum!

The next day, he brought me to climb the Perak Cave. Now, this cave, had a really tiring climb to make. I have a fear of heights. Those steps leading all the way up to the top of the cave was a terror! They were small and narrow and so steep. I hate climbing up but I was shivering and my legs were wobbly as I climbed back down the steps. There were no pictures taken during this cave trip. I could not risk losing my camera...falling all the way down from top to bottom...

I felt so reluctant to leave when my parents came to pick me up. I stayed one night with my family at a hotel before leaving for Penang the next morning. That night, my dad decided to pay a visit to his friend in Ipoh. Here I took a lovely picture of a star tortoise at my dad's friend house. I tell you, that guy's house is probably the most beautiful, neatly-decorated "antique shop" ever! Seriously, it was full of antique items. The whole house. Every inch. Every corner. If he loses his job one day, he opts to open an antique shop with his already secured collection. I forgot to snap some photos of his house...

My sweetheart brought me and my family to visit Sam Poh Tong the morning before we left for Penang. It was not as nice as the Perak Cave. But I was happy to be there because of my family and my sweetheart's presence. I am glad that we all get along well together. My dad told me he likes my sweetheart a lot! It made me smile :)

I asked my sister to poke her head next to the little buddha statue for the camera

So, I left good-old Ipoh after that, and headed to Penang with my family. We stayed at the Mutiara Beach Resort, which was located right at the end of the stretch of hotels at the beach side. It was a very nice hotel indeed. Listed as one of the world's leading hotels, comfort was 100% guaranteed. We spent the first day there swimming. The next day we visited the Butterfly Farm. This butterfly heaven is the largest in South East Asia! And yes, it really was pretty! Still, I freaked out whenever a butterfly zoomed past my face. Silly me :P

the pretty swimming pool at the hotel

That wraps up about everything! I came back home and found one hamster missing. We all thought it was dead. I was really upset.

I was so happy and jumpy when I found it smelling my socks while I was sitting at my desk in front of my computer. Thank God it was alright! And, I was all smiles.

Yun @ 1:27 AM | |

Friday, August 20, 2004

Volleyball!

Women's gymnastics. Swimming. Women's volleyball matches.

These are the three events that I will never fail to watch on tv :)
Live telecast or not, it does not matter. I find these three games most interesting to watch, especially the women's volleyball game. Wow, those tall, slim, sexy women hitting at it headstrong to win the medals...

Have you ever wished you were that champion girl competing at the Olympics?

Hehehe...silly as it may sound, I used to wish that - competing in the gymnastics event, earning that recognition, that gold medal, that smiles and tears of success. Muahahaha...of course, these are all just a dream. A dream that will never come true in this current life of mine :P

Anyway, I saw the women's preliminary volleybal match yesterday between China and Cuba.
I was surprise to see the Chinese's strength and skills. They were just as good as the Cubans, who were former champions in the past Olympic games. The match scores were really close. Both were exceptional teams. Still, the Cubans won the match. But I was puzzled when I saw the summary of the preliminary match - China still tops the list, first in rank. Weird. Maybe that match I saw was the last round to play before entering the semifinals. But, my friend told me they judge by scores not the winner of the game. So that could explain the scores.

The Cuban coach was a fierce man. He felt annoyed and tensed the whole time. But the Chinese coach, oddly, was constantly smiling and laughing. He maintened a cool demeanour throughout the whole match. One thing I laughed at - the amount of time-outs called by each coach. I realized each time the Chinese team took the lead, even if it was by one or point or they gained to a tie, the Cuban-old-man would sound the horn for a time-out session. Hahaha! It was really a funny sight. He did show some *ahem* kiasu symptoms :P Maybe it was the pressure coming on as it was a tough match and most likely they would want to keep their champion title.

Oh, but the Cubans were aggresive. The gals were shouting and screaming with spirit during the game. Every smack, every rebound, every slam, they scream!

I realized the Chinese can never be that aggresive. I guess that is their only weak point. The chinese have been good in games which require polished skills, take an example - table tennis. Probably there is nothing much I can describe about it. It is only my observation and probably a few others who have the same perception.

Well, well...

I think age is finally catching up on me. Or maybe it is just the fact that I have not been skating for more than 2 years? Haha, I actually lost touch in ice skating. Blah.

And I actually boasted about knowing how to skate to my boyfriend -_-'

Yun @ 11:27 AM | |

Thursday, August 19, 2004

Go, Wincci!

I saw my friend in the papers today! Here!

I did not realize how much she has changed over the years until I saw her picture! And what a big surprise to see her winning national and state beauty contests. It certainly is an indescribable feeling when seeing someone you know in public newspapers (for good news, that is...).

I would say there is a little proud feeling to that. I can say, "Hey, that stunning girl in the papers is my friend!" Not that I am a very good friend of hers. But we were classmates for two years. Back then, we were pretty close friends :) And all this while she was the beauty-star in class. Very feminine-like, elegant, and polite. She is very down-to-earth and friendly too. I should meet her sometime before I go back to Canada. However, she seems to busy for a casual drink with me! ;)

Congratulations, Wincci! Keep it up for the finals!

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At times, I feel really stupid.

Cheated.

It is when you give way to opportunity to mend things back, the hole collapse inwards deeper and deeper each time, unwilling to let you out. So, I just keep dropping. Disappointed and furious at heart.

I felt indignant for this treatment. Am I any different from the ones that make you smile? Am I just another stray cat on the streets that you would find so cute yet dirty and unkempt. And so, you will leave me out abandoned and lonesome. I will never be accepted into the warmth of your shelter. I would never be that friend who will keep you company till the end.

"Do I have any regrets?" I asked myself everytime I fall into this net.

No one answers. Only replays of scenes from the past will answer to it. It fills my head with such quick pace. Piling continously on top of me. I feel ready to fall. No answer still

"But why do people still have to force me?"

Undoubtedly, they were the ones who spurred up this mess in my head. I cannot take the blame alone. I may be crazy, but did they ever tell you why everyone thinks I am crazy? That is because you are stupid for you cannot understand my opinions and you cannot visualize my perceptions in your puny head. So, therefore, I am crazy in your own dictionary...

"How did we ever come to this?"

Our acquaintance, silly, what else?

"What did I do to deserve this sort of treatment?"

Maybe it was something you did in the past. Maybe people just think you are weird.

"Am I weird?"

(silence)

How will the world distinguish weird and normal? What is the meaning of individuality if there were to be discrimination against the weird, and respect for the normal? What is justice to mankind when pondans, gays, lesbians, transvestites are shunned for being abnormal...or put it this way, weird?

Just because I do not drink your cup of tea. Just because I do not eat sugar like you do. Just because I do not have the riches you earned. Or the smiles you get. Or the company you receive.

"What is this?"

A mere breakdown of your mind.

"Bullshit."

Well, if you say so.

"I want to earn my own dignity."

Work at it, girl. No one is stopping you from doing so.

"I have had enough with this."

That's right. You should not put yourself down to these dainty damsels. But are you being too insensitive?

"Why should I fucking care."

Oh, don't start the foul language, please. Doesn't solve the problem.

"Yes, yes...I don't know if I am. I should stop pretending to be someone I am not."

Hey, you have everything before you. What have you got to lose?

"Just forget them. After all, I have never been a part of their lives..."

Yun @ 11:29 AM | |

Wednesday, August 18, 2004

Now for my next feed!

I just finished the book, Life of Pi.

Yes, it was a good read. At first, the beginning was somewhat dull. The journey got interesting as he spoke of his survival days out in the sea with Richard Parker (the Bengal tiger). I liked the part where he found the island. I could feel his joy at the discovery of the island. After 100 over days of living above the surface of the sea, eating only fish and relying on turtle's blood to quench his thirst, with the scorching sun burning his skin during the day, and torrentious rain freezing him to the floorboat every night...being able to find land and shelter from the trees was like heaven to the soul.

Everything was interesting with the company of the Royal Bengal tiger.

But the island was carnivorous. Although it was lush with green trees, fresh-water ponds, abundant green algae for food and thousands of meerkats, the island was deadly during the night, where the algae surrounding the island, the forest and the ponds, produced high levels of acid, which burned every living thing that touched the ground. It was interesting. No wonder the tiger headed back to the lifeboat every evening before darkness came. No wonder the meerkats slept on the trees at night. No wonder the ecology was weird - there were no ants, not even butterflies or any kind of insect. No wonder the dead salt-water fishes that got trapped in the fresh-water ponds disappeared in the morning without a trace because the acid dissolved every single flesh and bone.

I am proud to say I have accomplished a difficult task. Before, I could never sit still to finish up a book. Probably, school and work was the main factor I did not bother to commit. Now that I can have a whole four-month holiday (which is going to end pretty soon...) each year, I am surprisingly glued to books. I was never this close to reading before. This holiday I have finished three good books. It is an accomplishment for me.

My sweetheart is arriving today! I cannot wait to be wrapped around his arms again ^^ Such a warm and secure feeling I will miss when I am back in cold Canada. Come to think of it, winter has never been merciless. Sigh. Another three years and I am out of there.

Many of my friends questioned my decision to go home after getting a degree. I do not feel the need to stay. After all, I am not planning to do a master's in my course. It is going to cost another bomb of $$$ and I would have to spend another 2-3 years there at most. Mum said I should go the states to work. I do not think she understands how I want my life to walk.

Not that I hate studying, but I just do not want to study anymore. Finding a job is a neccesity and I do not need a paper that prints "Master honours graduate" to get a decent job.

Maybe, I feel that I have seen much of the world already. I have travelled to the magnificent states, I have been to old England, I have stepped foot on historical China, I have been Down Under, I have crossed the oceans to study in Canada...nothing I feel deprived off.

I know myself better than anyone else. The life in the west is not suited for me. Every individual has its own tastes. No one has the right to question my choices - just because they think that living with the western culture is more distinguished and respected, and going back home is like going back to live in the dumpster. Bullshit.

I only wish for a happy future in my terms. A good study experience in Canada. A job probably to earn some income for myself. A loving husband whom will grow old with me. Beautiful children to complement my family. A house to live in. A secured living. Good health. And a peaceful country that will never allow my children to suffer the perils of war.

But there are ignorant, annoying people who do not understand the meaning of individual decisions. I had a friend once who literally argued with me in the subway train about my decisions. She claims that the opportunity to come all the way to Canada is rare and that we should stay on and settle down here. Plus, the income you get from jobs there is big money. She mocked my decision to return home after my degree. It was a humiliating sight. Not for me...but for her. I actually pitied her because everyone on the subway train was looking at her. Hah. Why can people not shut the fuck up and stop nosing into people's lives. I do hear out her opinions. But I never criticized others about their personal life matters. @3#$*#!

Yun @ 11:30 AM | |

Tuesday, August 17, 2004

Luncheon for 30 last Sunday

I was desperate for sleep. Really. Why do I feel so lethargic nowadays? Like I have not had sleep for a few days. As usual, the deafening call from my mom and the continous banging on my room door left me no choice but to crawl out of the room sleepy-eyed.

I literally crawled to the washroom. Pathetic me.

My energetic silly hamsters greeted me with glee as I passed by their cage. Hanging like monkeys again. They are really skilled.

Sunday morning and I was not sleeping in late! T_T

The reason was luncheon had to be prepared by 11am before the guests arrive. It was suppoze to start at 1pm. But my relatives came up much earlier. Although the luncheon was catered, mum prepared some other dishes lest the crowd had big appetites.

I had a job assigned to me that morning. Mum said I was to make garlic bread. Decorating the fruit dish was also my job. I did quickly without much effort to make it pretty. Haha. I was sleepy.

My house is real small to fit 30 people. It is just a condo unit. Not very big. Not very small either. But fitting 30 people into the house at once was like stuffing an over-packed suitcase. I could hardly walk or get pass the dining to the kitchen. I was stuck in the room with my cousins and their babies.

Speaking of babies, without their presence I wouldhave been so bored. I kept myself occupied with them the whole afternoon. Venice was the cutest. Little Shyuan shyuan was a little shy at first because the crowd was too big. When the crowd got lesser, she sat by me to play. Naughty, but really adorable. The other baby boy was "off limits" to me. Very protected. So I could not joke around or play with him. Once, a tiny accident occured that made his mother really angry. I could not believe she HIT me for making her son fall. Sheesh. I did not make her son fall. He was trying to walk over to me, and it was just a small distance between us, but I did not know he could not walk properly yet. He let go of the railing suddenly, and he fell down himself. It all happened so fast. Damn. I tried to catch him but in vain. So, she hit me. She hit me! @%8#!

Anyway, the luncheon ended at about 5 pm. Some guests left early. The only ones who stayed back were my relatives. That Sunday was known as the "eating frenzy day". We all ate from 1pm till 8pm non-stop...ugh...

I went to bed early that night. Sleepy again ^^

Yun @ 1:31 AM | |

Saturday, August 14, 2004

Dumb movie reviews

I was talking with a few friends lately about the movie "House of Flying Daggers". Most of them have not watched the movie but told me that their friends said it was stupid because of one part that became suddenly illogical to viewers.

Also, I read a few blogs who criticized this movie with the same reason for it being not logical.

I remember the some people in the cinema laughed at that scene too.

As my friend's friend quoted,

"The gal died liao...already stabbed with the dagger...aiseh man...how the hell can she stand up again? Lame, man...like she came back from the dead...so illogical, stupid movie la! That last scene spoil the whole thing only!"

Seriously. I do not see a single problem with that particular scene. Think about this.

If a person who is so skilled at chinese martial arts can straight away die at the stab of a small dagger...would she have the right to play this part of the woman skilled at this dagger stance? She should know, after all, having learnt this style for so long, how powerful the damage of this dagger stance is. And she would not die right away. Look at those soldiers who got killed by the daggers. They were so easily killed because they do not know what it should feel like being attacked that way. You keep what you learn.

Hey, come on...if you stab two people - one, a person who knows nothing of martial arts...two, a person who is skilled at kung-fu, have sustained damages before, and have trained their bodies and strength well. Which will die first? Of course the person who knows nothing of martial arts la! One hit is like owwwwwwwwww....and then *bluek* die...because the pain is unbearable. I am sure the other person could still bear the pain because of years of training...he is comparatively stronger...ini macam logic la!

Therefore, could it not be more sensible to say that she fainted from a very painful hit??

And everyone should know the logic behind this scene right after Takeshi Kaneshiro said "Don't pull the dagger out, you will die from profuse bleeding."

Hey, makes sense. She was stabbed at the heart. Have you not seen people wounded with a knife or any other sharp object still stuck in their body being told not to pull it out until it is safe to do so? There you go. Is this logic? No??

Some people should just analyze more before making such haste judgement. Do you think Zhang YiMou... such a famous and distinguished director lost some sense into making such a stupid scene? I don't think so. It is us that fail to see the logic behind this wise and careful planning. So, it us being irrational not him being illogical. Just had to let it out. I feel sometimes we are too rigid in the way we see things.

Few months back, the release of the show "Day After Tomorrow" was considered a waste of time and money to cinema crowd.

Reason?

Because it was lame. One snorted in such disbelief at the scene where the father started a journey up north to save his son. Who would do that in reality? Who can survive the cold? Hah. Let us see when the time comes how survival takes on. Plus, the father knew what he was doing. He knew what was coming and how to avoid it...so? Out of love for the son...won't you do that even if there was little hope left?

Think about this. The movie is not trying to be stupid. Every movie has its messages for the public. This movie plainly showed how stubborn human beings can be when discussing environmental issues. You will never know, this might happen in another few centuries. Look at our surroundings. Look at our neighbouring countries. Does anyone ever notice how critical environmental pollution is getting? In the end, it is only us that will suffer. So, what was all the fuss about it being a boring, stupid show without a plot? No movie gets into the cinema without a plot, okay. Now, is that not another logic?

Even that disturbing movie, "Godsend" had a very educational message. Although it was not an all-star movie, it taught us not to play God. What you have lost is lost and you cannot replace it back through modern science advancements.

That horror show, "Cabin Fever" was another disturbing movie. But yeah, after seeing this movie, you really learn how to survive in that kind of situation (although in the movie, they were stupid to let it spread to themselves).

I cannot comprehend movie reviews sometimes. Just watch, learn something from it and go home. If there really is nothing...like some horror, ghost movies...then forget it. They are just out to scare people and give us a feeling of suspense. Not nice, then forget it. It must have been just another one of those shows you will watch when you are bored.

Yun @ 11:32 AM | |

Friday, August 13, 2004

Headaches Kill

There was an uninvited quarry working in my head the whole day. I nearly fell off the bed this morning due to my bad sense of space. I thought I would still be on the edge of the bed when I made a full body turn to the right...but noooo...whoooa...

I had a weird experience this morning. Someone came up to my house and rang the doorbell. I was like...ughhhh...who could that be? But it only rang once. My doorbell is not those buzzer-type or the ones that go 'DING DONG!' sweetly. It has 12 different annoying melodies that blast through the entire house one by one, like some routined symphony. Usually, the people who would ring it again and again (I would say, at least three times) are my parents or the postmen. So, since only one melody sounded, I did not bother about the person at the door and went back to sleep. Haha.

After a few minutes, my handphone rang. It sounded softer than usual, and I was sure it came from outside. I opened one eye reluctantly to look around. The loud, frightening ringtone stopped after 10 seconds. Ughh...I buried my face under the pillow. Bad idea - my headache got worse because I lack fresh air. Just as I shifted under my warm blanket, I started to think about that missed phone call - Eh? My handphone was right on the table in front of my bed. How could I have heard it coming from outside my room?

My headache was bugging me the whole time since I woke up. I could not walk to the washroom properly. I headed straight for a nice, hot shower, hoping it might clear the ache. Which would temporarily clear a headache...a cool or hot shower? I hate cold water splashing on to my body. Brrr.

I did not feel like facing any idiot boxes. I went back to bed, cuddled under the blanket and continued reading my book, "Life of Pi". The story is getting interesting. The beginning chapters were quite a bore. I am half way through the book now. I want to finish it quickly so that I can begin feeding on my next dish - "The Portable Door" by Tom Holt.

Not a very good day it is. Every pain surging through me is giving me a total whack in the head from inside! How to cure a headache?

Sleep? I have had more than 10 hours of sleep today. I think I would become a tofu if I continue sleeping.
I kept washing my face with cold water. It refreshes my face. Not my head.
Okay, hitting the head may not seem like a good solution but it seemed to take away the pain for a short while each time I hit. I clenched my fist and knock, knock, knock...it came back after I got tired of knocking...
Take a step out into the fresh air - bloody hell, it is damn hazy today! I shut all the windows for the haze made things worse...

What can I do...I am still suffering this quirky pain...I hate headaches. They just kill all your sense slowly. The eyes gets drowsy and gets pain as well. Then, all your limbs feel lifeless. I just feel like throwing up, I don't know why. Sigh...why a head ache?

I figured it could be coming from my eyesight. I went to the eye doctor (what are they called again...optician?). My lenses are fine, I do not need a new set. My eyes are okay. Except for one minor problem. I have ingrown eyelashes that touches my eye. He wanted to pluck a few out for me...ack! I was like, "No, thank you, doctor..." with a slight horror in my expression. I shall drop some eye-mo into my eyes now.

And I thought today was Friday...

Yun @ 11:33 AM | |

Tuesday, August 10, 2004

Sex in cars

Hmm.

Making love in a Kancil car is totally weird. I cannot imagine. Such a confined space for sex. How to enjoy? Probably, skillful people, eh?

Another sex-in-the-car news yesterday. I bet you there will be another similar news today or in a few days time. Applause for the newspaper. This time, they were lorry drivers...or is it? I have forgotten the news. Maybe they were having sex in a lorry. That is more sensible than mating in a Kancil car. I would say it is just like having sex in a box, ay?

Pardon me. I am a delinquent at home who does not want to obey early sleeping hours. I have come to a point where my state of mind is half-bonkers. I am sleepy. But my good friend, ding-dong-boy, decided to kill my heart with a phone call, just to inform me of a dim-sum at 9am tomorrow at Kepong. Who the hell would eat dim-sum at 9 am? Ugh...at KEPONG?? Nuts.

So, here I am. But I am feeling really queasy now. My eyes are feeling drowsy again. That is a good sign! I was actually feeling really tired while watching the chinese soap operas last night. The uneasiness in the eyes gets to the nose, and follows up to crunch the brain. Like eating Nachos. Only thing is I am Nachos, not the person eating Nachos. Whatever.

Boredom can be a real pain sometimes. Extreme boredom (my current state) gets me into a shopping frenzy. I will have a fetish for unnecessary items. I will be drawn to thing which were alien to me before. Funny. Now is not the time to splurge! No! But hey, who can stop a girl from shopping? Unless it is my sister. She hates shopping. I can hear my hamsters squeaking. Ugh...fighting again.

Okay, bed time.

Yun @ 2:34 PM | |

Monday, August 09, 2004

My cute little garden

On a warm Sunday afternoon, dad drove us to Sungai Buloh to look for some plants for that tiny space of ours called the balcony. As a result, my once bare balcony is now crowded with pretty greens and a cute fountain on the table top. Each morning after washing up, I would have a little excursion to view my little garden. Dad placed a few guppy fishes into the small fountain, but after we placed them in, one-by-one they started jumping out (the fountain bowl was too shallow). How silly....we should not have poured them into the fountain bowl in the first place. We had to take it out. We waited for each one to jump out of the water for we were unable to catch them by hand - it was too difficult ( and I did not have the tools to scoop them out).

A little bonzai tree right in front of the fountain. A pretty light plant to the side of it. Plenty of green, green leaves, and some nice flowers everywhere at the balcony...ahhhh :)

Throughout my whole year in Canada I experienced more than 7 months of greenless environment. Now, that I am back home with all these green plants around me...I have this strong urge to bring them back with me to Canada...muahahaha....(but it is impossible , I know, they will die). I would love to have some plants at my apartment there. But, I can only place it in my own room because that would be my one and only personal, private space. The kitchen and the hall would be the common area, shared by four of us in the apartment. I cannot believe that there is a problem faxing the lease to me from the housing office. Do they know how to operate a fax machine? Or are they just being inefficient? Sigh. Please. I need this home. Cheapest. Right on campus. Just above the subway. Near Safeway. Just in front of the bus stop. *sob sob*

I am restless. Slept at 3 am last night. Woke up at 12pm. Lazing around with a book in my hand. Ate lunch, which was tasteless and bit on a fishball that emitted a juicy, fishy liquid..yucccckk! Took pictures of stuff in my home. Here is my sister, stubbornly refusing to get away from my computer and that silly spider game.

Here is my porcupine foot cushion. I tell you, the babies love to play and jump on mr. porcupine head. Don't know why...it is just a footstool...interested in getting one too? Grab it at IKEA.

Bored...

Yun @ 9:34 PM | |

Flying Passion

The movie "House of Flying Daggers" was okay. Interesting love affair, interesting kung-fu. But it was a little slow. Without Takeshi Kaneshiro's role, the movie would have been a total bore. Directed by the famous Zhang Yimou, this movie is definitely one of the best showcases of the decade. I have not watched the show, "Hero", which was also directed by him but they say it was just as good. I was wondering if these outstanding kung-fu existed during the ancient times, where the land was ruled by the kings of famous dynasties, and where rebels were always underground plotting to overthrow the government. Each time I stumble across a movie like this on tv, I would watch in awe but at the same time wonder if it is all just ficitional. Still, something always knocks me back to realize that it could not have been fictional because of its written history which, sadly, was burnt by Shih Huang Ti (of some dynasty, I forgot). Thus, it is true that it all existed once upon a time in chinese history. Books that recorded the knowledge were destroyed to wipe out any form of revolution or rebellion in the future. Sigh...I wonder. The dagger part in the show was really impressive. What bothered me was the thought of having modern physics entering our society, constantly inventing new ways to improve our daily living standards, but none have ventured to experiment on these ultimate kung-fu techniques, which, are nonetheless just applying the right amount of force to allow the knife to fly. Or better still, to allow the humans to fly. But they say that requires some sort of qi-gong, some inner chi that we have to practise and bla bla bla...

Anyway, it was worth a watch for me. At least, we have Takeshi in the picture ^^

Just a few minutes ago, my family and I finished watching the "Passion of Christ" (pirated DVD) :P

I would say it was violent, but a good movie. I hate the Romans. They are like animals. But once you think over it again, they are just the same as any other government officials in the old times, who torture for entertainment. Eunuchs were no better than them. But yeah, I saw the old movie once on HBO, and the ending was a little different. I liked the ending of Mel Gibson's production better. And in his show, it looked more realistic. The one I saw on tv featured a different situation when He died after His crucification - black rain fell and balls of fire crashed down to the city.

I feel really up to no good these days. Always feeling tired. Always having these weird emotions surging through me. Blueh. I do not feel good.

Yun @ 11:36 AM | |

Sunday, August 08, 2004

Disturbing thoughts

It was a bad start today. First, I had this terrible headache pounding all the way from early morning till I was forced to wake up at 10.30am. I do not know the reason for this nerve-wrecking pain. I was trying to make things a happy, normal day, but somehow everything turned upside down for me. Maybe I was trying too hard to forget some disturbing thoughts? Or is it the famous "PMS" that is stirring up my hormones.

Dad said "...drive us to McDonald's for breakfast". I knew the way, so I tried to be confident. Everything was fine until an interruption from my dad. I know I have to make a u-turn, but I saw form the corner of my eye that he was pointing to the u-turn at the road on the right, so naturally, I thought he wanted me to make a u-turn there (maybe, for safer reasons) but then as I was about to go into that road, my actions were questioned. In the end, I managed to make the original u-turn at the traffic light although it was awkward because I was too far out in the box. Okay, I was a little annoyed. I should not be. But I do not know why. It could be my hormones. Yeah, blame it all on the hormones :P

I was panicking but I could not feel it at that moment. I felt weird. I felt tensed. I always have this horrendous pressure weighing down on me whenever I am driving with my family. Totally out of my grip. I swerved too fast at the bend, and slowed down too fast after the bend. True, my mistake. Fortunate for me, no car was behind at that moment. So, I actually was not sticking to my lane. Thus, I received the blow again. Here comes the worse part. Probably, it was really the hormones and the panic state I was in. Argh, let's just say it is the wrath of confusion. Stupid enough, it turned into rage. I was actually shaking a little but no one noticed. I was on the right lane after that. McD's was on the left, so I had to find an opportunity to come into the left lane. At that time, my hands and my sight were not co-ordinating well anymore. Not at all. So, no signal, swerving in when there was a big car beside me, did not see cars were stopping in front of me...but not to worry, I pressed the brakes on time. Everyone was shouting in the car, blows and blows...hah, I actually cried. I could not take it. But, really confused feelings, and a not-so-clear mind today.

Odd, I still do not know what is bothering me today. It must be the hormones...

We are heading for a movie later - House of Flying Daggers.

I keep waiting for it, but the more I wait, the more it does not come, and the more sad I feel. Then, I think to myself, what the bloody hell am I doing. Am I wrong? Paranoid? Emotional?

Fine. Emotional. Worrying too much again. I hate days like this. I do not know myself anymore.

Yun @ 8:37 AM | |

Saturday, August 07, 2004

Swimming without rules

It was really scorching hot today. I was relaxing in my room while reading interesting girl issues in Cleo when my mum called to say that we were to go swimming once she gets back home. Okay, I have not been swimming for quite some time. It is high time I resume my workout routine. I have to admit, my intake of carbohydrates and fats over the weeks have increased at a marvelous, constant rate. As I tried on a pair of jeans today at Edwin Jeans, I could not help but sighed at the fact that I had to wear a size 28...(I used to fit in nicely with a 27!)...

Okay, no one wants to hear a girl's rant about her appearance and the like. Better still, let me rant about my swimming experience which took place just an hour ago.

Beautiful evening. After weeks of merciless pouring rain, the sun has regained its full strength to burn humans again. I was excited to see the swimming pool a crystal clear blue. But, the sight of those swimming instructors, those kids with their pathetic swimming boards, and the proud, cool parents sitting around the edge of the swimming pool was a big disappointment. How are we suppoze to swim in such a condition? Mind you, there are two relatively large pools at my condo. One is a full size swimming pool for adults and the other is a wading pool. I am telling you those kids ought to be learning how to swim at the wading pool. And yes, maybe the older kids can learn swimming at the bigger pool, provided they do not use all the space to themselves.

Hey, you boy, with that big turtle float and that ridiculous snorkel on your head...bring your stupid toy over to the wading pool to play.

It was a havoc. It resembled the kind of unruly traffic, where people know nothing of rules. Well, even if the kids did not know the rules, those tai siu lai lai as parents, should reprimand them or at least teach them not to block people's way when playing in the pool. They should know better than to just sit around giggling and laughing with the other ladies in their oh-so-proper hats and sunglasses. Furthermore, most of them were outsiders. They were not residents of this condo. And they definitely have no bloody rat's right to do as they like. It is stupid. I am disgusted with them. Once, I warned a child not to block the swimmer's way and asked him to play at the wading pool. He was scared, naturally, of a warning from a stranger. I mean, hey, he kept jumping into the pool into other people's path, playing with his stupid toy float (which is not allowed in this pool) and my, that ridiculous snorkel on his head...what does he want, to look at invisible fishes at the bottom of the pool?? His mother was so unhappy when she found him sulking all the way to the other pool and so, she glared at me for destroying her precious baby's fun. Sheesh, lady, get a life. Read the rules, and get out of my sight. I, as a resident of this place, have the right to tell your son off. I was not eating him up or anything. And bloody hell, your son was wrong, not me. I would have dragged her to the signboard and asked her if she knew how to read English, but I was not that cruel.

Last night, I watched this movie "Jiang Hu"...a canto gangster movie, featuring really handsome guys like Edison, Shawn Yu, Andy Lau, Jacky Cheung, oooh and many more. Shawn was the best guy to me ^^ But the show was boring...*zzz*...really slow and draggy...

I hate days like this when I have to wait, but I do not know what it is I am waiting for.

Check this out, the parody of Friendster --> Fiendster

Yun @ 11:38 AM | |

Friday, August 06, 2004

A present for my one-year-old dooddle ^o^ (edited)

Ahh...

Finally, a new skin. After so long...wait a minute. I change skins every now and then. Maybe you should call me the "skin-changer". I searched 500 over skins for this colourful doodle design. I love it. Absolutely obssesed with it. I came across very nice blogs this afternoon. I found a few which featured very good writings. Such an envy.

As usual, my sleepy head was awaken again by the consistent knocks on my room door. Only this time, I realized it was not my mum pestering me to wake up. It was the maid. She needed the vaccum cleaner which was stored in my room (my room is kind of like a storage area. Even the ironing board is mounted to the wall in my room). How embarassing it was. I looked awful when I woke up to greet her. The clock showed 12.55pm as I made a difficult journey to the bathroom. Good God, I had slept for 13 hours.

I read the papers today and I felt annoyed after reading the news about 21,000 letters not being delivered by some idiotic postman. Out of vengeance he just had to keep all the letters. Selfish kind of guy. We had nothing to do with your hatred and vengeance for your boss who sacked you, Mr. Postman. So, quit it! For all I know, my confirmation package from Canada could be one of the many victims! I bet there were other important documents, letters, and bills waiting to be delivered on time to the rightful owners. Sheesh. I never trust Malaysian's postal system. Good to know, sometimes.

I had a sudden urge for a reading frenzy. I told mum that I wanted to go to MPH. Mum said it was best not to what with the recent murder and rape crimes being so rampant. Disappointed, but I understood. So, I was surfing the net the whole afternoon when mum called and asked me if I wanted to go with her to 1utama. Yippee!

I found an interesting book. I could not find a Canadian price so I guessed I would not be able to find this book in Canada. So, I bought it. I am buying more books than I can read. It is a translated version from the original book which was written in French. Oh, it is a book crying a river of details! I am carried away by the way the author writes. This is a good read - "Life is elsewhere" by Milan Kundara. But for now, I am concentrating on my current read, "Life of Pi" by Yann Martel. Haha. My obsession with books *cough*

My aunt is recovering well from her illness but it is not to be taken lightly. The doctor threatened to give her a jab is she does not take her medicine accordingly. It is good to see her back to her old-self again. I am glad. My pretty niece came to visit me again ^^ Oh, she is so adorable! I tried to take a picture of her but she kept moving away...these are the best shots I took. Only three years old, and she shares the same last name (Shyuan) as me!

Little Shyuan Shyuan playing with lego in my sis's room...

The naughty baby was trying to run away from my camera

The new generation in the family. I wonder.

Yun @ 11:39 AM | |

Wednesday, August 04, 2004

Family Outing

Mum was literally banging on the door this morning trying to wake me up from my sleepy head. I woke up feeling very blur. I heard my sister in the bathroom, and wondered...huh? Then, I heard my dad in the room...and I was like errrh? Mum was just sweeping the floor. I thought I was dreaming. Then, I discovered it was ohhhhh...a 15-year-girl's decision to "ponteng" school and a 43-year-old man's decision to "ponteng" work. A very good surprise indeed.

We decided to watch I, Robot today. After visiting my aunt at her home, my parents picked us up and headed straight for lunch at 1utama. We bought the tickets, and had lunch at the new food court located at a quiet corner in the new wing. It was pretty good. The food was cheap for its size. But I did not realize there was a food court at that area. It was hidden from shoppers' view. There were lots of workers having their lunch there. I guess it was catered for these retail assistants.

I love my new red eyeshadow. It really suits my skin tone. Although, I still have to get rid of the oil on my face even after applying an oil-free foundation and powder. It should be the hot and humid weather here that brings out the oiliness in my skin. My face does not get oily in Canada because of the dry weather. In fact, I have to put lots of moisturizer everyday.

Normal day today. It was nice to have a family outing. I am a little bitter with the fact that my sweetheart is going back to Ipoh tomorrow. We were suppoze to meet up tomorrow, you see. Anyway, he will be coming down again probably next week. I do feel bad for I cannot go up to Ipoh myself by bus. My parents would not allow such a thing. So, he has to come down here by himself, plus he has to put up a few nights at his friend's place. It is quite troublesome for his friends although they might not admit it. But I'm leaving soon. I just want to spend more time with him if I can.

I have not heard from the housing department about my lease!!!
They said they will fax it over...but what the hell...they do not seem to be doing anything. I have to call them tonight. All I am afraid of is the deadline. And my confirmation package which was sent to me by regular mail is lost (for sure, it has been a month and nothing has reached my doorstep). Please! I need a place to stay! I don't want to be homeless!!

Yun @ 11:40 PM | |

Don't know what to do

Happy birthday to my bloggy!

It has been a year and I have ranted quite a hill of posts. I was just reading back some of my previous posts. For some reason, I felt contented. Maybe this was the place I sought refuge after all my painful trials and tribulations over the months.

There were happy times, there were frustrating moments. There were painful moments, and memorable events. From the beginning of my journey till now, they were all jotted down with strength.

Now, everything is taking on a serious toll. Time and age is catching up with me really fast and I feel like I am falling behind. At times, I cannot find myself. I tend to go with the flow lest being the odd gumball. At times, I think to myself, can I get rid of these unstable emotions. The past has never left me a good memory. Happiness is what I feel now, what I am gripping on to each day, trying not to let it go because I fear loneliness. Yes, that is my biggest fear - loneliness. Just when I thought I could stay with my love, he has to leave me. Yet another long-distanced relationship. But I am blessed for having a loving and understanding boyfriend. The only problem is I have to catch with maturity fast or else our relationship won't work out. I actually miss my friends in Canada. Maybe I have been hanging out too much with older people. This holiday has not been all that well for me actually. Next time, I am getting a job.

I was contemplating whether I should get a new skin or not. Somehow, I feel like getting a new one, but I also like this current skin, which is simple and comfy. It really depicts my personality. Suitable. But the urge to get the new one is still there.

I just got back from WowWow cafe at Hartamas with Tse Jian, Kan Wah, Chiak Lung and Jesserina. Actually, I was not in the mood for friends. My aunt got admitted into the hospital. I was frustrated because I was so bored at home. I felt like taking the car out myself to drive around but I did not want to be the disobedient daughter. I miss the hectic studying life. Yet, I don't feel like leaving home too. I miss the food here, my family, the shopping malls, the lifestyle...but deep down, I need the freedom to do my own things. I can be quite a mess, my tantrums are no joke. Learning to control your emotions is hard to do. I tend to release and vent everything out nowadays instead of keeping them in the bottle.

You know how when you are given the same kind of dinner everytime at your friend's house, you get sick? You get bored. You do not fit in all of a sudden at the dinner table. You feel like you rather be alone than to eat the same thing over and over again. Then, you realize it is not your type of dinner. It has become somewhat alien to your tastebuds. Yet, you sit and finish them obediently with a smile on your face because it is a courtesy. Or maybe it is just hypocrisy. No, not that. It is more of compromisation. Or maybe it is just a confusion? Maybe I am picky and weird. And thus, I should be live a hermit's life. Be a recluse. But then again, that does not solve the problem. Sigh.

Dear God... again.

I am currently sitting with a tummy ache in front of my computer, blogging away like the wind. Words are pouring out now. I was not very cheerful today. I did not talk much at supper. I just laughed and tried to hide it, well enough, so that my friends will not think I am weird. Well, it was better than staying at home doing nothing but watch tv or face the computer again after family time is done. I should get some rest. Thanks, bloggie for your company. You have always been a good friend. Good night.

Yun @ 11:41 AM | |

Sunday, August 01, 2004

Going home

I had a splitting headache the whole afternoon today. I am blaming it on the weather and because it is a saturday, the crowd drains my energy away. Last night, I had dinner with my family and all my dad's staff members at Klang. It was a fun night. They were very good-humoured people. It feels good to hear a good, natural joke from them. A newly-hired staff, Daniel, was the joker of the group. I would say, he was intelligent and witty. Well, he did ask a few personal questions about me, like whether I had a quai lo boyfriend...which I answered no to, and another person teased him if he was asking too many personal questions. My dad followed up by saying there were so many other things to talk about other than my personal "experience" overseas...hehe. I shall not speak of his intentions *ahem ahem* it was just a nice social outing for everyone of us :)

We went to the temple after that because we were nearby. Dropped by to get some blessings for my next journey to Canada. We were suppozed to visit Aunt Christine last night but it was too late by the time we got to PJ. So, we decided to visit her today instead. And boy, it was a long visit...

Yeaps. My aunt is sick again. Well, nothing much I could do. I will not reveal much here. But yeah, it was an emergency tonight...and I had to drive myself and my sister home. Hehehe...finally did it all by myself. But it was so jammed up at 1utama, if my sis did not remind me of this car turning into my lane at the junction, I would have knocked him if I pressed the oil more. Fortunately, both our cars, were going quite slow. So, drove safely, arrived safely back home :) I am proud of myself, hehe.

Now, I am tired...nite nite ^^

Yun @ 11:43 AM | |

about me

Home: KL, Malaysia
School: U of A

I am someone who frets a lot - I call it a psychological disorder. I am constantly trying to escape my complex mind which, very often, drives me and my close companions to the edge of insanity. Born under the sun star Libra, I am greatly affected by a disease called "indecisiveness". Nicknames were never part of my dictionary until I met some people who decided to name me "turtle". Soon, I was representing a zoo of hamsters, "sotongs", pigs, cats, etc...

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