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Monday, March 22, 2004

Only you can show me the way...

~Love Mum, Dad and Sis always~

My mind was blank. The mixed anger and stupidity overwhelmed my mind viciously throughout the night. My heart was so weak. I could not allow myself to be free, to let things go, and be less sensitive about every little thing that I had observed. What has become of me today, I wonder. Knowing you was a blessing in disguise. I never knew the true meaning of freedom until I met you. It was so real, right before my eyes, but I still can't seem to grasp it in my hands. I'm trying with all my strength, to ease out my once suppressed heart. The heart that saw too many indecencies, heard too many screams of terror, and felt too much pain. But yes, you're right. Without them, I would never be who I am today. I wouldn't be standing here with my two feet. THe choice I made led me to this path, for I would have blindly walked the other road and leave this world. Plunged into the deepest, darkest hours of suppression and anger, I was ridiculed all my life. What do I know? Silly thoughts that I carried filled in most of my life. Undermining my own intelligence, burning out the light of my star, keeping hostage the soul in me that needs to get out.

I should not have been so rash to judge everything from my perspective, or mine eyes at most. Needless to say, it was the feeling of lost that kept me to believe one day you'll dry out my soul. It's so hard to explain...the fear of losing someone you love so dearly at heart, that no matter what happens, even if it only remains as a memory the love is eternal and forever. Your presence cannot be taken so lightly. Always bringing natural bliss wherever you go. The smile that you smile and others upon yours brings beauty to my world. Oh, can this feeling be expressed more than just words? Yes, of course. What is love then suppoze to mean if it cannot be shown by ways other than words.

Too long have I allow the suppresion to go on. Too long have I deceived my heart into believing that empathy is all that I seek for. The greatest gift that I have received is not love itself but... you. Only you can show me the right path and I knew this the first time I met you. Everything...from your guidance, your strength, to your love, which you shower upon me...thank you...for showing me the way.

Yun @ 7:52 AM | |

about me

Home: KL, Malaysia
School: U of A

I am someone who frets a lot - I call it a psychological disorder. I am constantly trying to escape my complex mind which, very often, drives me and my close companions to the edge of insanity. Born under the sun star Libra, I am greatly affected by a disease called "indecisiveness". Nicknames were never part of my dictionary until I met some people who decided to name me "turtle". Soon, I was representing a zoo of hamsters, "sotongs", pigs, cats, etc...

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