Sunday, August 07, 2005
She doesn't understand
"Why? Fall in love already ah?""Don't mess around until you graduate! After you have no heart to study."
When are they going to stop giving me false hope? When I was in high school, puppy love was inevitable, and so I understood why they advised me before. They told me to wait till university. Now I am in university, and they tell me to wait till I'm working. Shit happens, but hey, you can't prevent me from getting hurt all the time!
I am starting to think my parents do not know their daughter well enough. For years, since when did my studies get affected by numerous failures in love relationships? I got my A's. I got the high marks. It's not like I can find Mr. Right straight away when I'm older, and then get hooked, get married, lala li li blah blah ... and finally, happy ever after?
I see no point in complaining about this all the time but I still cannot take my mother's sharp comments. It's not like I'm eloping with the guy overnight. We're just getting to know each other better, and taking things step by step. We have been good friends since. And like I said, shit happens. Feelings come round. It's not like you can burn them instantly and shake it off like salt and pepper.
They underestimate me. Yeah, I am that weak.
What happened to the notion of letting me spread my wings to explore the world on my own?
Hear me now. You can tell me to love myself and be myself but don't tell me how.
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Home: KL, Malaysia
School: U of A
I am someone who frets a lot - I call it a psychological disorder. I am constantly trying to escape my complex mind which, very often, drives me and my close companions to the edge of insanity. Born under the sun star Libra, I am greatly affected by a disease called "indecisiveness". Nicknames were never part of my dictionary until I met some people who decided to name me "turtle". Soon, I was representing a zoo of hamsters, "sotongs", pigs, cats, etc...
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