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Saturday, May 22, 2004

I am that good friend

~Love Mum, Dad and Sis always~

Trodding out of my life was truth. I stumbled upon a familiar feeling, which I did not realize, has disturbed me for the past few years. Few years. It has been a long time. Probably it was just me. Probably it was just me giving too much. I realized, I have suppressed my ownself for others that I love dearly. Yes that is a sacrifice I have to make. No complaints - I never did. True enough, they come and they go. Disappointment prevails throughout the years as they leave without the least gratitude. Who is asking for a change? I did not ask for it. I did not want it. So, it is just a matter of time for me to accept it. After all, I am only human. I am not here to tell a story. I am here to tell the truth. Expectations are for the ambitious ones. I hold expectations - expectations that only regard to myself. What is this good friend doing in life? What is a good friend? She is not asking for anything. She only wants everyone to be happy, she wishes to have a circle in life which never breaks. She never had one of those. There was one but it was full of indecencies that brought to a crack in the ring. Life is so unpredictable, they say. But now, I feel it is so predictable. It is but a fool before my eyes, that stumbles in front of me everytime I look into the mirror, that face which shows such horrific feelings, telling me the TRUTH. What is there to look forward to? Life itself brings no joy without the reciprocal of love, friendship, joy. Reciprocation. It is a word. A word yet to be discovered by me. No reciprocation to render. No joy to seek. No trust to feel. No love to devour. I am that good friend. I am that which the fool speaks.

Yun @ 5:56 AM | |

about me

Home: KL, Malaysia
School: U of A

I am someone who frets a lot - I call it a psychological disorder. I am constantly trying to escape my complex mind which, very often, drives me and my close companions to the edge of insanity. Born under the sun star Libra, I am greatly affected by a disease called "indecisiveness". Nicknames were never part of my dictionary until I met some people who decided to name me "turtle". Soon, I was representing a zoo of hamsters, "sotongs", pigs, cats, etc...

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